God Is Calling Me to Surrender My Business—And I’m Struggling

I’ve been in business a long time. And for just as long, I’ve been stressed—about money, about decisions, about growth, about survival. I’ve poured myself into the work, carried the weight of responsibility, and wrestled through season after season of uncertainty. And though I’ve tried other paths and looked at other opportunities, I’ve come to realize this is exactly where God wants me.

But I also know He’s calling me to something deeper—something scarier.

He’s calling me to surrender.

And I’ll be honest: I don’t want to. Not really. I know it sounds holy, and faithful, and right—but the truth is, it scares me. I’m afraid of what might happen if I really hand it all over. What if it fails? What if letting go means losing what I’ve worked so hard to build? What if God’s idea of “success” doesn’t look like mine?

There’s a part of me that wants to trust, and another part that’s still clinging tightly to control. I want peace, but I also want the steering wheel. I want God’s help, but I want my hands on the plan. It’s a tug-of-war between faith and fear—and right now, I’m caught in the middle.

But here's the thing: I know Jesus is calling me to surrender because He already surrendered everything for me.

He gave His life. He shed His blood. He went to the cross not just to redeem my soul, but to redeem my whole life—including my work, my business, my daily grind. He didn’t hold back. So how can I?

How can I say I trust Him with eternity but not with today? How can I believe He conquered death but doubt He can provide for my family? It’s not logical, but it’s real. I feel it. I fight it. And yet, I know—I know—this is the next step.

Not because I’ve arrived. Not because I’m some spiritual giant. But because I’m tired of carrying a weight I was never meant to bear. Because deep down, I believe there is freedom on the other side of surrender. And because I trust that the One who died for me will not fail me now.

So I’m not writing this to say “I’ve surrendered.” I’m writing this to say—I’m trying.

I’m wrestling. I’m praying. I’m holding out my hands, even as part of me still wants to pull them back. But I believe God meets us in the struggle, not just in the victory. And maybe you're there too.

If you are, I want you to know: you're not alone. And you're not a failure for being afraid. You're human. But the God who calls us to surrender is the same God who carries us through it.

I don't have a 5-step plan or a perfect prayer. But I do have a growing desire to say:

“Lord, this business is Yours. Help me let go. Help me trust You with the outcomes, the finances, the clients, the future. Help me surrender, even when I’m afraid. Because I know You love me. You gave everything for me. And there’s nowhere safer than in Your hands.”

I’m not there yet. But I want to be.And maybe wanting to surrender is the first step.

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1.This Is What I Should Do (My New Ministry Operating Manual)

1. This business belongs to God.

“The earth is the Lord’s and the fullness thereof.” – Psalm 24:1

I’m not the owner. I’m the steward. Every part of this business—its name, clients, income, assets, and future—belongs to God. I’ve been entrusted with it, not to control it, but to manage it faithfully for His glory.

2. My mission is to serve Him.

“Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men.” – Colossians 3:23

This business exists to serve others with excellence, integrity, and love. Profit matters, but purpose matters more. My work is an act of worship.

3. The outcomes are in God’s hands.

“Commit your work to the Lord, and your plans will be established.” – Proverbs 16:3

“Unless the Lord builds the house, those who build it labor in vain.” – Psalm 127:1

I’ll keep working hard, but I won’t carry the burden alone. God is the provider, not me. Whether this business grows, shifts, or even ends—that’s His decision. I will trust Him in every outcome.

4. Prayer is now my daily practice.

Each morning, I will begin in prayer—not just asking for help, but offering my day. I’ll ask for wisdom, peace, and guidance. When stress comes, I’ll take it to Him first—not to my spreadsheets, my inbox, or my panic.

5. These are my core values:

- Integrity over shortcuts

- People over profit

- Excellence in all I do

- Rest, even in busy seasons

- Generosity, no matter my bank account

- Faithfulness, not just success

6. I will practice Sabbath rest.

“In returning and rest you shall be saved.” – Isaiah 30:15

Rest is not laziness—it’s faith. It’s saying, “God, I trust You to handle what I can’t.” I will guard time for Sabbath, family, and renewal.

7. I want to leave a legacy of faith.

“Well done, good and faithful servant.” – Matthew 25:23

If this business is remembered for anything, let it be that it was run with faith, compassion, and purpose. I want to leave behind more than income—I want to leave behind impact.